Why is it wrong to be selfish?!

I’ve found myself lately questioning everyone else’s expectations of me.

How many times have we all been told we are selfish? How many times are we being told to also look after ourselves, put ourselves first? Bit of a contradiction?!

For someone who suffers from anxiety and depression, I can tell you now every decision I make I think about how other people are perceiving it, judge it, talk about it etc.

Well, I’m making a stand to say who gives a shit?!

The definition of selfish is: ‘(of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit or pleasure.’

So if I’m having a terrible day and don’t turn up at your party or event yes I am ‘concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit or pleasure’ because, why shouldn’t I be. If I’m having a day were leaving the house is going to make me miserable and anxious why am I forcing myself, literally feeling sick, because I don’t want to upset people? Who is being selfish in this situation? Why can’t I be selfish?

I’m actually self-titled ‘a flake’ now because I was so sick of other people calling it to me for not turning up. How would you react if I said, I’m having a really low day, I’m not feeling up to it? Guarantee the response is, ‘come on it will cheer you up’. Really?! Will it?! Are you being selfish wanting me there to make up numbers or am I being selfish not coming because I’m having a bad day?

People don’t think twice to ask you to do something for them? Is that being selfish, or am I being selfish if I say no, I haven’t got the time? Are they being selfish knowing ill say yes because I never want to let anyone down?

If I’m having a party and I ask you to BOYB am I selfish for not supplying you all with alcohol or are you selfish turning up empty-handed expecting me to pay for the £30 bottle of gin you’re about to drink? Or am I selfish for throwing a party without having the financial capability to fully cater to everyone?

People leave relationships because they are not happy, some for many years. What do people call them? Selfish. Please explain why? Because they have put themselves first for once?! Or were they ‘concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit’.

People move to other countries, towns, cities whatever, they are called selfish for leaving their families and not being there at the drop of a hat. Is it not more selfish to not let them go and further themselves because again they have put themselves first for once?! Yet again is this them being ‘concerned chiefly with one’s own personal profit’.

If I have people over for dinner am I selfish for not inviting the entire friendship group?

Where does it end?!

I’m sick of overthinking EVERYTHING out of fear of pissing someone off!

Next time you throw the word SELFISH at someone stop and think. Are they selfish or are they putting themselves first for once in their life? I for one will be taking SELFISH as a compliment from now on because for once in my life I’m putting myself and my needs first!

P.S if you have invited me to any of your parties there is a 50/50 chance of me coming.

Ciao for now!

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29andnotaclue

I'm 29 and literally clueless about mostly everything! I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up! The thought of having children scares the life out of me, I can barely dress myself! Life basically seems like one big joke (because that's what I make it to disguise the fact that adulting petrifies me and is sooooo bleak!) except I have direct debits coming out of my eyeballs and nothing I say really seems to make any sort of sense! I crave excitement outside of seeing whats in my monthly Birchbox subscription. The ageing process is not being kind to me (the day I discovered a chin hair was a MAJOR low point!) My waist is rapidly expanding. My desire to be thin is ever increasing. My motivation to do anything about it is ever depleting. I have an inner need to buy budget gadgets that break or are completely useless and that desire never seems to fade, I literally have a house full of useless s**t!!! What is life?! I think its time for a Gin...................

2 thoughts on “Why is it wrong to be selfish?!”

  1. I too have lived my whole life with depression and always trying to do what was/is expected of me from everyone, always putting someone else’s needs, wants, desires and feelings before my own, and living my life trying not to let anyone down or disappoint someone else. My spiritual mentor has told me that you have to be at 100% to give 100%, you have to be able to help yourself before you can help someone else, you have to be able to take care of you before you can take care of someone else. Not allowing others to treat us like doormats isnt selfish it is having respect for ourselves. I know there is truth in it all but still hard to break the cycle and put myself first. I applaud you for standing up for yourself!!!

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